I remembered watching an anime movie a while back. It was very heart warming, touching, made me tear a little. The movie was genius. Perfect. Simple. The life of a lady. The memories she had. All too familiarly related to someone whom I knew and loved so much. Which one? They are all the same. How delicate is the female form and how weak is the male's heart.

When you love someone, you do not treat him with respect nor dignity. When you love someone, and you show your love to him, you just want him to love you back. It's a sick egoistic twisted world out there, and when he blows you a whiff, you watches as the glowing images of lips float towards yours, entranced. It's all desire. You want his touch, you want his care, you want his support. There is no such thing as I want to love you because I just feel like donating something to charity today. It's a fair trade, a blind trade. Blind to yourself, absolute darkness to the victim. But then again, it might be the same to the other so you felt cheated so you kill him. Bang! No remorse. You got what you want. Now! Be free! Don't tear my rose. You lied to youself, now wake up and blend into the darkness of the vegas lights! There are many fishes in the sea, go get yourself another sucker (fish). Happy to suck you off bringing you to orgasmic delight. "Get lost you piece of shit! Ok, Im sorry baby, I wont say that again..piece of shit.."

But this is not true love. This is basically how human beings treat one another.

I aint human. I'm a freak. I love her, but want nothing from her except for her to be a good person. In the mean time, I'm going to be patient, just like how I usually am.