Sunday, February 25, 2007
12:02 AM



waves slowly as i fade away

This shouldnt have happened. Its my fault. I shouldnt have said hi. I shouldnt have talked to her. I shouldnt have. I wouldnt if I know it would turn out like this.

When we were still close friends, we didnt give a damn. We didnt remember to appreciate the friendly comfort we could give one another. We didnt care because we thought we were the only ones in the world.

She just left. She called me a stranger. The last thing she told me was that it was going to be the last time shes saying anything to me and that it is probably the first time shes saying anything to me cause she doesnt know me.

I was a brother to her. There was no attraction. When I protected her I protected her as a brother. I wished her the best and wanted to give her the best. I got worried when she went walking alone at night and sleep at the playground. I got jealous when a guy gave her chocolates.
But when she wanted to be my girlfriend.

I said no.

Because that wasnt how I perceived her.
I think.

That wasnt how I took her.
I think.





Then I told her everything.






I had to. It was only fair.


For her.


For me.




For you.


For us.







Not talking to me now wouldnt help. Because one day when I make it big, you will see me and the scars would burst open and the memories will come pouring back in. We are cursed and only death can heal the wounds.